3:32 AM
Even Though
i’m happier then I could ever ask for. and everything in my life is perfect. It’s hard for me to look back and wonder. i’m scared because senior year is nothing like i planned. everything was supposed to be picture perfect with no flaws. and here I am, the last week of senior year. Looking at the people I called my best friends at one time who i get to smile at when I walk by now. And as I cry on the shoulder of the one person who I planned on being there, who left me in the dust, I can’t help but to beg God to let me rewind and do things the right way.
I wouldn’t have dated a guy that treated me like property and didn’t let me be me.
I would have tried harder in school and been a better person to the people around me.
I would have treated myself with respect and been proud of what I am.
I would have never lost my best friend. I would have never jepridized our friendship for a fling.
I would have made more friends and been more outgoing.
I would have called my Gamma more then just on holidays and not grown when i knew i had to call.
and while I regret all these things, I can’t help but to look forward to the future, because in reality, life isn’t even close to picture perfect. Life is broken sometimes. Sometimes it takes a broken heart to finally find what love is. Sometimes you have to lose friends in order to gain real ones. life has flaws, and every flaw is beautiful because it made me the person I am today.








